tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-86456763891628898702024-02-20T20:24:32.627+08:00the heart of mine"where my private thoughts & feelings are saved..."snowy bluebird!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14357211121083688879noreply@blogger.comBlogger12125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8645676389162889870.post-48357991647135556882010-09-28T13:48:00.002+08:002010-09-28T14:17:35.882+08:00his birthdaytomorrow is his birthday but there's nothing i can do..i wish that i could wish him but it seems like it's impossible thing to do. aku x tau macam mana nak describe apa perasaan ku sekarang..alangkah indah kalau dia dapat tau yang seseorang slalu mengingati birthday dia malahan tak sabar menunggu saat itu. dan alangkah bahagianya aku kalau dapat wish 'happy birthday' kat dia....aku sangkakan aku mempunyai harapan utk wish but today i found out that i can't. something prevents me from doing so. <br />
<br />
aku tak mengerti dengan apa yang ku lalui sekarang. i'm not in love with him. how could it be? he's a stranger! wlaupun selalu jgk bertembung, we don't even talk.. senyum pun tak..kadang2 je terpandang satu sama lain. that's it. it can't be love. impossibe! but what about this feeling? he's always on my mind, he even comes in my dreams...aku selalu TERfikirkan dia, TERangankan dia dan TERmimpikan dia. how could i control this when it happens unconsciously. <br />
<br />
aku tau, sedar dan pasti hanya aku saja yang mengalami keadaan ini. mustahil untuk dia juga rasa apa yang aku rasa kerana aku masih waras dan sedar lagi siapa aku di mata dia..hanya orang yang lalu lalang. some say that in order to be happy, just follow your heart. i wish that i could follow my heart but i can't coz it goes astray, it leads me to him... which isn't supposed to. what i have to do now is to control my heart. i won't let it drifts away. so, sempena birtday dia esok...aku akan cuba sebaik mungkin untuk padam perasaan ini before i fall too deeply. i can't promise myself coz i have no confidence but all i can do is to try my very best. yes, i will coz i can. aja aja fighting! go go go!<br />
<br />
To you:<br />
<br />
-->HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE! (wish that i could really say it to u)<br />
-->SEMOGA PANJANG UMUR, SIHAT DAN HAPPY SELALU...<br />
-->NO MATTER WHERE U ARE, WHAT U DO AND WHO U WITH, I'LL PRAY FOR U...<br />
-->IT'S OK IF U DON'T NOTICE ME COZ I'M GOING TO FORGET THIS FEELING...<br />
-->...COZ EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON AND I DO BELIEVE THAT...snowy bluebird!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14357211121083688879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8645676389162889870.post-29234118217968104762010-04-20T23:52:00.002+08:002010-04-20T23:59:28.031+08:00bila April tiba...erm...dlm beberape minit lg brakhir la 20 april 2010...tarikh aku wujud dlm dunia ini..aku brharap ari ini lbih brmkna dr ari2 biase...tp sumenye same spt ari2 sblmnye..tiade ape yg special...aku brniat utk hepi ari ni....aku brsyukur dan hepi krn rmai jgk kwn2 yg wish besday aku...tiade yg lbih mngembirakan aku d hari lahir ku ini selain ucapan dari org2 trsyg dan kwn2...tp ntah knp air mate jtuh jgk pd ari istimewa ini....dlm kgmbiraan ade jgk kelukaannye....tiade sbrg ucapan dari org yg kuharapkan....sedih...it's really meaningful to me if that someone wishes a happy besday to me...but that's never gonna happen for my entire life...................snowy bluebird!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14357211121083688879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8645676389162889870.post-76411077662804695082010-04-17T20:32:00.000+08:002010-04-17T20:32:07.294+08:00LOVE STORYOnce upon a time, there was a girl named Eve. She didn’t have many friends and she only lived in her little own world. Her only close friends were her family and her pets. She enjoyed herself by doing the things she likes such as listening to music, watching movies, and reading love stories. When she was in a high school, she admired someone whose name is Adam. He was in the same class as her. It was a normal thing happened during that age. They never befriends, not even talks. She just liked to watch that boy and couldn’t take her eyes off him every time they were in the class. In the class, Eve always got the highest mark in English. All her classmates knew about that. Apparently, she had a favourite teacher named Mr. Ronald. He used to be her class teacher. He was proud of her because her English was not very bad. It was hard for students at that school to get good result in English. Mr. Ronald made her felt appreciated and he gave her support to improve her English by giving her an English magazine every month. It made her felt happy and proud of herself. During the final year in the high school, a camp for one of the subjects was held in one place for four days. Only students in her class were compulsory to participate. When they reached there, they were given rooms. They could choose their own roommates. Her roommate was Elly, the closest friend in her class. Before they reached to their rooms, some boys offered to give their hands to carry their huge bags. They were Adam and his best friends, Zack and Luke. She and her classmates had some fun there. On their way back from the camp, Eve sat by herself in the bus. Out of the blue, there was someone sat next to her. It was Adam! He just sat there in order to have some chats with his friends who sat behind Eve and on the other side. She thought that he just sat there for a while but throughout the journey, until she reached her home. Right through the journey, she didn’t know exactly what she felt. All she knew was her heart beaten faster than before and she felt uneasy. After a few weeks, Adam asked her the meaning of a word in English. That was the first and the last time they were staring into each other’s eyes. Sadly, she couldn’t answer him because couldn’t find the answer of his question. It was just a simple question but it didn’t cross her mind because her mentality couldn’t think and function as it should be the moment he looked into her eyes. <br />
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Time went by swiftly and it was the time for school graduation and farewell. The last day that she saw Adam was when the day for filling the form for furthering studies to tertiary level. She knew that they won’t meet again and she just wished good bye to him in her heart. After finishing the school, she tried to find his phone number. Months later, she managed herself into a well-known university. Nevertheless, she didn’t give up on searching his number. After some time, she got the number from one of her classmates. She started contact him and to her surprise, he gave her a good respond. From that day on, they became good friends. They even shared their ups and downs together. Just through texting, they became close in a year or two but everything was changed when she found out that he was in love with someone. Her heart stopped beating and fell apart the moment he told her and there were tears in her eyes. She didn’t know why she cried and she just couldn’t stop the tears from falling. Eve couldn’t sleep that night just because of the news. Then she realized that she had fallen for him. However, she just kept the feelings inside and nobody knows about that. Though they still friends, there was distance between them. Adam was changed. He hardly ever texting Eve anymore or even replied it. They continued to be like that after some time and then everything was back to normal again when they became close friends just like before. Soon she found out the he broke up with his girlfriend and he had no one to turn to. Maybe that was the reason why he texting her again. Months later, the same story happened again when he disappeared again. He just came and gone just like that. Then again Eve found out that he got someone new. That time she realized that Adam just came to her only when he had no one. Eve was really heartbreaking to be treated like that. He just came to her whenever he needed her and forgot about her whenever he didn’t need her. <br />
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Eve was really had a heartbroken and she tried to forget him. She tried to put aside the feelings that she had for him. Yet, the more she tried to forget him, the more her mind thought about him. Although it’s hard, she tried to live like nothing happened and went on with her life. Sooner or later, the feeling was fading away…………….<br />
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to be continued...........snowy bluebird!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14357211121083688879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8645676389162889870.post-41299094000648137282009-11-14T02:20:00.002+08:002009-11-14T02:26:25.385+08:00Do i really have a crush on him?<meta content="text/html; charset=utf-8" http-equiv="Content-Type"></meta><meta content="Word.Document" name="ProgId"></meta><meta content="Microsoft Word 12" name="Generator"></meta><meta content="Microsoft Word 12" name="Originator"></meta><link href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5Cmyclient%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_filelist.xml" rel="File-List"></link><link href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5Cmyclient%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_themedata.thmx" rel="themeData"></link><link href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5Cmyclient%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_colorschememapping.xml" rel="colorSchemeMapping"></link><style>
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<ol start="1" style="font-family: inherit;" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Take notice of how you and your body react next time you see him. If you feel nervous or feel your heart skip a beat or start to sweat, you probably like him. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice what you think about when you think of the guy. If thinking of him makes you nervous, excited or happy, you probably have a crush on him.- IT MAKES ME SAD INSTEAD<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice whenever you try to go to the same exact place where he is. For example, when you are in school, you pass by his locker, or the places where you know he may be. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice whenever you try to make a guy jealous. This may be a sign you like him. -NO<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice if you talk to your friends about him a lot. -SOMETIMES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice whenever you try to get his attention. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice if you try to make friends with his friends, or keep finding reasons to get close to him. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice whenever you try to get information about him. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Count how many times you think about him a day. If you think about him more than several times, you probably like him. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice, how many times you've tried to google his name and how many times you've tried to search his personal page on MYSPACE or other social networking site. -YES..ON FB<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice if you feel jealous or get mad at him for any little thing he does. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice if your friend says you blush whenever he's around or his name is mentioned. -NO, THEY DON'T KNOW BOUT THIS.<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice if you feel jealous when he's around other girls and/or flirts with them. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice if your friends tell you that you were staring at him, and you don't even realize it. -NO, THEY DON'T NOTICE THAT.<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">If you talk about him in one of your conversations to anybody who will listen, he is stuck in your mind, and you probably like him. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">When you're getting dressed in the morning before school you always think "Will _____ like this?" Or something similar. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">You look forward to the one class you have with him or, you are so thankful you have more than one class with him. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice if you think about him in the most random moments. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">If you're shy, notice when you avoid eye contact and blush when you are around him. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">If you walk by him and always glance over to see if he noticed you. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">You think about him the most and always have a smile on your face if you do. -YES, BUT IT MAKES ME SAD.<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">You remember incidents or moments you've had with him. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice if you always look to see where he is. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">You might act differently with him than with other guys. -MAYBE<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice if your friend says that you were doing something to get his attention, but you didn't even know that you did. -NO, COZ THEY DON'T KNOW<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">When you go to school you always see if he is there that day or you're always wanting to go just to see him. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice if you always think of reasons, especially the small ridiculous reasons, to talk to him or to continue a conversation. -NO, NEVER TALK TO HIM<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice if you are the first one to text him or to start a conversation with him. -NO, TOO SHY TO DO SO<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">You can't sleep well. -SOMETIMES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Notice if you get a sudden thrill whenever you hear his name. -YES<o:p></o:p></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal;">Finally, the biggest sign that there is: Were you thinking of him as you read this whole page? Did you search for this article so you could find out if you were crushing on him? If the answer to both of those is "Yes," then you like him a <i>lot! -</i>YES!!!!!!!!!!!</li>
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----->><span style="color: lime;">WHAT DOES IT MEAN???????????? I'M GOING CRAZY THINKING ABOUT THIS! </span><br />
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snowy bluebird!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14357211121083688879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8645676389162889870.post-79942426597245999252009-11-14T01:23:00.001+08:002009-11-14T01:28:01.381+08:00Untukmu...<div style="text-align: center;"><b><i>F,</i></b><br />
<b><i>Setiap kali terpandang wajah,</i></b><br />
<b><i>Terpegun aku dan terpesona,</i></b><br />
<b><i>Dengan senyuman dan pandangan mata mu,</i></b><br />
<b><i>Membuatkan hati ini tidak keruan..</i></b><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><i>Tanpa aku sedari,</i></b><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><i>Perasaan minat ini bertukar mnjadi cinta.</i></b><br />
<b><i><br />
</i></b><br />
<b><i>F,</i></b><br />
<b><i>Mungkinkah dikau,</i></b><br />
<b><i>Putera yang kucari dalam jagaku,</i></b><br />
<b><i>Slalu terbayang dan termimpi-mimpi,</i></b><br />
<b><i>Hingga terbawa di dalam lenaku...</i></b><br />
<b><i>Andainya dirimu sudi memandang dan menerimaku,</i></b><br />
<b><i>Kan kumahkotakanmu jauh di sudut hatiku.</i></b><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><i>Ku kan menyayangimu dengan setulus hati...</i></b><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><i><br />
</i></b><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><i>Dan akan ku setia pada yang satu..</i></b><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><i>Kerana diriku bukanlah,</i></b><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><i>Seorang yang mudah menyerahkan cinta.</i></b><br />
<b><i>Untuk memilikimu..</i></b><br />
<b><i>Setinggi gunung harapan,</i></b><br />
<b><i>Bukalah pintu hatimu untuk cinta ini,</i></b><br />
<b><i>Hanya ini harapanku,</i></b><br />
<b><i>Semoga impian ini kan menjadi nyata,</i></b><br />
<b><i>Bersamamu............</i></b><br />
</div><a name='more'></a>snowy bluebird!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14357211121083688879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8645676389162889870.post-943449777525167302009-10-14T00:53:00.003+08:002009-10-14T01:48:02.029+08:00aku buntu...kepada sahabatku:<br />
<br />
ku berharap waktu dan ketika ini kamu bahagia dgn org tersayang... <br />
dan tidak hairan la klu kamu dah melupai aku...<br />
sesungguhnya die lbih penting...<br />
kamu mmbuat satu keputusan yg bijak dgn menukar nombor fon...<br />
kerana itu saja cara utk ku melupai kamu..<br />
tiada cara lg utk ku terus mnggangu ketenangan hidupmu<br />
yang x perlu kehadiranku lagi....<br />
walau bagaimanapun...<br />
ku berharap sampai satu saat kamu akn mengingati aku,<br />
kamu akan merindui aku,<br />
kamu akn sedar yg kamu telah kehilangan seorg kwn....<br />
<br />
selamat tinggal sahabatku...<br />
<br />
kepada si dia:<br />
<br />
aku seperti org bodoh kerana menyukai kamu...<br />
meminati kamu tnpa pngetahuan kamu dan org len... <br />
kdg2 smpai hmpir gile memikirkan knp harusku jd begini... <br />
kamu telah membina rumah di dlm otakku...<br />
dan aku gagal menghalau kamu keluar...<br />
kamu yg slalu ku fikirkan...<br />
kamu yg slalu ku angankan...<br />
tp xkn smpai dlm mimpi pon kamu nk ikut?<br />
dan setiap kali ku terpandang kelibatmu..<br />
ku x dpt mngalihkan pndanganku ke arah lain lg...<br />
kamu telah menarik perhatianku...<br />
tetapi realiti membuatku sedih...<br />
membuatkan hatiku sakit... <br />
kerana ku tahu itu semua hanyalah satu mimpi...<br />
satu angan2 kosong...<br />
sesungguhnya mimpi itu mmg indah...<br />
tetapi realiti membuatkan aku mengalir air mata...<br />
untuk menerima kenyataan..<br />
yg kamu x pernh tau ttg kewujudan aku...<br />
kamu yg x pernah dan x akn memandang aku...<br />
kerana aku sedar siapa aku nk dbandingkan dgn dirimu...<br />
seorang insan biasa yg tiada apa2 keistimewaan... <br />
sampai bila harusku begini?<br />
aku sudah penat dan letih dgn prasaan ini...<br />
tolonglah aku ya Allah...<br />
berikan aku kekuatan dan ketabahan hati...snowy bluebird!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14357211121083688879noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8645676389162889870.post-14726692681710164562009-09-15T03:32:00.001+08:002009-09-15T11:24:28.850+08:00love comes to me like this<i>Sit down for a minute</i><br />
<i>I need you to listen</i><br />
<i>My heart is only tryin' to understand</i><br />
<i>I already stumbled and fell into your love</i><br />
<i>Like a castle falling in the sand</i><br />
<i><br />
</i><br />
<i>You were never there to hold me</i><br />
<i>When I needed your hands</i><br />
<i>You were never there to listen</i><br />
<i>When I needed a friend</i><br />
<i>Gave me lovin' for a day</i><br />
<i>And never gave it again</i><br />
<i>Now I'm standin' outside your door</i><br />
<i><br />
</i><br />
<i>Knock knock knock</i><br />
<i>Nobody's there but me</i><br />
<i>Am I the only one hangin' on</i><br />
<i>Knock knock knock</i><br />
<i>Nobody's home but me</i><br />
<i>I'm the only one hangin' on</i><br />
<br />
<i>One-sided love</i><br />
<i><br />
</i><br />
<i>Love's so deceivin'</i><br />
<i>You had me believin'</i><br />
<i>That you would never let me down</i><br />
<i>You dangled your candy in front of a baby</i><br />
<i>And you took your sweets across the town</i>snowy bluebird!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14357211121083688879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8645676389162889870.post-73264430274623039452009-09-12T00:31:00.002+08:002009-09-12T00:35:20.501+08:00tired of being myelf<meta content="text/html; charset=utf-8" http-equiv="Content-Type"></meta><meta content="Word.Document" name="ProgId"></meta><meta content="Microsoft Word 12" name="Generator"></meta><meta content="Microsoft Word 12" name="Originator"></meta><link href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5Cmyclient%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_filelist.xml" rel="File-List"></link><link href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5Cmyclient%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_themedata.thmx" rel="themeData"></link><link href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5Cmyclient%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_colorschememapping.xml" rel="colorSchemeMapping"></link> <m:smallfrac m:val="off"> <m:dispdef> <m:lmargin m:val="0"> <m:rmargin m:val="0"> <m:defjc m:val="centerGroup"> <m:wrapindent m:val="1440"> <m:intlim m:val="subSup"> <m:narylim m:val="undOvr"> </m:narylim></m:intlim> </m:wrapindent><style>
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<div style="color: #ffd966; font-family: "Courier New",Courier,monospace;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"><span lang="EN" style="font-size: 10pt;">Ain't it funny how some feelings u just can't deny and u can't move on even though u try...i wish i never even met u now. so then i wouldn't stay awake at nite-staring at my blank ceiling thinking about u and how i wish that u could see me and at the same time how i know i'm not good enough for you... how i may never ever be your friend but u're still out there somewhere and still driving me crazy...</span></span></div><span style="font-size: x-large;"><span lang="EN" style="color: #ffd966; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10pt;"></span><b><span lang="EN" style="color: #3c77e6; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10pt;"><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="color: red;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"><span lang="EN" style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10pt;">I'm not in love...It's just a silly phase I'm going through...And just because I think about u all the time...Don't get me wrong..Don't think you've got it made...<strike>i'm in love</strike>...I'm not in love...</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: red;"><b><span lang="EN" style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10pt;"></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b><span lang="EN" style="color: #3c77e6; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 10pt;"><br />
</span></b><span style="font-family: "Georgia","serif";"><o:p></o:p></span></div>snowy bluebird!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14357211121083688879noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8645676389162889870.post-49628736349371483852009-09-10T23:07:00.000+08:002009-09-10T23:07:42.444+08:00lalalala...alhamdulillah...kusut kepala ku smkin berkurg...sgalanye tlh berlalu...x sbr rasenye nk blik kg...blik kg dpt mengurangkan kekusutan di kepala ini kerana berada dgn org2 tersayang...snowy bluebird!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14357211121083688879noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8645676389162889870.post-23550011584287939732009-09-09T00:15:00.002+08:002009-09-09T00:28:54.016+08:00feeling down<div style="color: lime;">i'm feeling down today...kepala aku serabut skrg...things that make me feel worst:</div><ul style="color: cyan;"><li>presentation n assignment that due on thursday</li>
<li>result midterm teruk</li>
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</ul><div style="color: yellow;">Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku....berikan lah aku kekuatan dan ketabahan hati utk ku meneruskan liku2 idup ini...</div><div style="color: yellow;"></div><div style="color: yellow;">ssungguhnye hnye Engkau yg tau betapa aku insan yg lemah...hnye Engkau yg mengetahui dan memahami perasaanku ketika ini...Sedihnye prasaanku x dpt ku gambarkan...aku hanye mmpu mgalirkan air mata dan hanye Engkau yg mnjadi sksi...jika bantal, slimut, katil, meja dan brg2 dlm bilikku dpt mndgr dan melihat serta mmpunyai hati prasaan, aku pasti mereka juga akn sedih melihat kesedihanku ini...hnye mereka mnjadi teman ketika ku bersedih....mgkin mereka jgk akn menangis apabila mlihat tuannye mngis...tp syg mereka x dpt buat ape2...</div><br />
<div style="color: magenta;">berkenaan prasaanku trhdp die....Ya Allah...Kau padamkan lah perasaan ku ini sebelum ia mnjadi smkin parah...aku tau hnye aku yg mmpunyai prasaan ini...sdgkan die x prnh pndang aku...x prnh tau pon kewujudan aku ini...aku tau aku x lyak utk mmpunyai prasaan ini terhdp die...Ya Allah, aku tau prasaan ini adalah 1 anugerah but it hurts too much...aku x sggup mghdapi nye utk kali kedua...ckup la dgn ape yg aku harungi sebelum ini...one-sided love is much painful than having a heart broken..ptus cinta at least kte tau kte prnh d sygi...ade org mnyayagi kte...tp one-sided love?hnye org yg prnh mengalami nye tau dan pham betapa skitnye..<br />
</div><div style="color: magenta;"></div><div style="color: orange;">Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, sblm ini aku prnh brharap dpt berkawan dgn die..skrg ape yg aku hrapkan adalah utk Kau lenyapkan prasaaan ini trhdp die...kerana berdasarkan ape yg aku lihat, aku x mgkin mnjadi kwn die... aku xnk berharap lg...harapan itu mmbuatkan aku hidup dlm alam fantasi....di mane sume org tau fantasi xkn jd realiti...<br />
</div><div style="color: red;">Ya Allah Ya Allah Ya Allah....Kau tolonglah aku Ya Allah..hnye Kau yg memahami dan megetahui prasaaanku ni....berikan lah aku semangat dan kekuatan Ya Allah...that's what i really need rite now coz i lost it long time ago...<br />
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<span style="color: white;">Moga Kau kabulkanlah doaku ini...amin.............</span>snowy bluebird!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14357211121083688879noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8645676389162889870.post-67984418797414991352009-09-07T00:59:00.000+08:002009-09-07T01:11:14.448+08:00i'm going insane...aku mmg x phm dengan prasaan aku skrg...aku dah penat dgn prasaan ni...aku pernah berperasaan begini sblm ni but with different person...for about 4 years i kept this feeling...he's one of my friends...at first aku x menyedari prasaan ini sehingga la he told me that he met someone special...i don't know y but my heart fell apart the moment he told me that...i even cried...it something that i couldn't control...however, kami truskan persahabatan kami shigga kini..sepnjang itu jgk aku slalu mtk prtolongan drpd Allah...spaya tlong aku padamkan prasaan aku ini jika die bkn tkdir ku...aku jga mnta Dia tlong cri pgganti utk aku lupakan die...<br />
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kini...ingatan aku trhdp die sdh berkurg...tp kdg2 ade jgk terfikir psl die...ape yg die buat skrg?tp skrg fikiran aku tdk tertumpu kpd die lg...len plak jd nye...aku asyik terfikirkan org yg aku tulis dlm post aku sblm ni...<br />
slalu aku berharap dpt bertembung dgn die ke mane saje aku pergi...klmarin aku ade bertembung dgn die dkt bazar....xtau la die nmpak aku ke x coz aku sembunyi blkg kwn aku...mmg aku dh x btui...aku nk die nmpk aku tp nape aku sembunyi blkg kwn aku?aku x paham..............adakah ini cinta? aku xtau...<br />
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sampai ble hrus aku berperasaan begini...adakah sejarah berulang lagi?tp dengan berlainan org...aku hrp prasaan ini hnye sementara...cpt2 la berlalu...snowy bluebird!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14357211121083688879noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8645676389162889870.post-64661626515024706432009-08-31T22:36:00.000+08:002009-08-31T23:52:31.315+08:00love? like? admire?<div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">perasaan ini dtg lg...xtau knp kebelakangan ini aku selalu terfikirkan die...he's always been on my mind...smpai dlm mimpi pon aku nmpk die...stiap ari aku berhrp dpt bertembung dgn die...wlaupon aku dan die x prnh bersapa...hnye bertembung mate saje dpt mmbuatkan ati aku berdbr2...prnh dua kali mate kami bertemu...aku tgk die,die tgk aku...tp ble mate die pndang mate aku je trus cpt2 aku alihkan pndangan ku ke arh len...pretending that nothing's happen but inside, hnye allah je tau...smpai skrg aku msih trbyg pndangan matenye...i still vividly can remember it...n it's hard 4 me to frget...</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span> </div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">aku minat die sjk kali prtame aku tgk die...die 1 group dgn aku ms ice breaking course kami...wlaupun 1 group, kami x prnh bersapa...aku jd pendiam dgn org yg aku x knl...maybe die pon pemalu...x byk ckp pon spnjg program tu...pd mlm pnutup pgram tu ade dinner...rmai yg amik pluang utk brgambar....ade jgk la sorg dua senior pompuan brgmbr dgn die...aku pon xtau la ape yg aku rs time tu...cemburu ke?ishh, x phm la aku...prnh jgk kami sekelas,amik sbjek yg same pd mase yg same...tiap kali dlm kls, mate aku slalu mncri kelibat die...ble x nmpk die aku rs something's missing je dlm kls tu...pd ms tu aku tau die dh ade mkwe...agaknye la...aku msih ingt lagi pd ari presentation aku, aku ckp smthing yg melucukan...classmates aku gelak je...trmsuk la die...ntah knp aku rs happy je time tu...dpt mmbuatkn org ktawa trutamenye die...</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span> </div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">ms brlalu...n i think that i just admire him...not more than that...sem ni kami sekelas lg...spt dlu, stiap kali p kls tu aku brhrp dpt jmpe dgn die...just to see him there...i just can't take my eyes off him! ari demi ari aku selalu berangan dan berdoa yg kami akn bertembung di luar kmpus.or mane2 je aku prgi...n pd mse itu die akn tegur aku...hahaha...ini la angan ku....angan yg xkn jd kenyataan...aku x pasti la die notice aku ke x...ari sbtu bru ni aku kuar p msjid india...mlm sblm tu terdetik d ati aku brhrap spaya aku brtembung dgn die...ati ku berkate "bestnye klu aku bertembung ngan die n kmudian die sapa aku...mntk no fon aku...bla bla bla...." hahaha...tggi sugguh aku terbang...ntah knp tringin sgt mengenali die...brkwn dgn die...jelez jgk tgk owg len dpt brkwn dgn die...i just wanna b one of his frens..not more than that...</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span> </div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">aku blik dr msjid india dgn lrt...aku brdiri d ruang view pmndangan kt dpt lrt tu...knon2 la aku yg bwk lrt tu...haha,...ade je tmpt kosong tp sngaje aku x duduk..sesampai je kt stesen lrt wngsa maju, ade 3 boys bru msuk...aku trpndang kwnnye...cpt2 aku alihkan pndangan ke hdpan...dan ati ku mula brdbr2...wlaupun aku x nmpk die tp aku dpt agak die msti ade dlm 3 org tu cos 3 owg tu adlah geng...tekaan aku mmg btul..it's him!</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">ble trun je dr lrt,diowg jln dlu...aku d blkg...die ade jgk pndg ke blkg tp aku rs die x cam aku coz aku pkai topeng h1n1...hheheh...Fuh,selamat! but deep down inside my heart, i really hope that he notices me...</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span> </div><div style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">it's amazing...it's unbelievable that half of my dreams came true...syukur alhamdulillah allah telah mendengar dan memakbulkan hrpan dan doa ku ini....satu2 nye hrpan ku skrg ialah utk mjdi kwn die...aku akn slalu berdoa yg suatu ari nnti kami akn jd kwn...isyaallah...amin...</span></div><br />
<span style="color: #cc0000;"><span style="font-size: large;"><i><b>LOVE<span style="color: black;">, </span></b></i></span></span><span style="color: blue;"><span style="font-size: large;"><i><b>LIKE<span style="color: black;">, <span style="color: lime;">ADMIRE</span></span></b></i></span></span><br />
<div style="color: yellow;"><span style="font-size: large;"><i><b><span style="font-size: x-small;">which category do i belong to?</span> </b></i></span></div>snowy bluebird!http://www.blogger.com/profile/14357211121083688879noreply@blogger.com5