his birthday

tomorrow is his birthday but there's nothing i can do..i wish that i could wish him but it seems like it's impossible thing to do. aku x tau macam mana nak describe apa perasaan ku sekarang..alangkah indah kalau dia dapat tau yang seseorang slalu mengingati birthday dia malahan tak sabar menunggu saat itu. dan alangkah bahagianya aku kalau dapat wish 'happy birthday' kat dia....aku sangkakan aku mempunyai harapan utk wish but today i found out that i can't. something prevents me from doing so.

aku tak mengerti dengan apa yang ku lalui sekarang. i'm not in love with him. how could it be? he's a stranger! wlaupun selalu jgk bertembung, we don't even talk.. senyum pun tak..kadang2 je terpandang satu sama lain. that's it. it can't be love. impossibe! but what about this feeling? he's always on my mind, he even comes in my dreams...aku selalu TERfikirkan dia, TERangankan dia dan TERmimpikan dia. how could i control this when it happens unconsciously.

aku tau, sedar dan pasti hanya aku saja yang mengalami keadaan ini. mustahil untuk dia juga rasa apa yang aku rasa kerana aku masih waras dan sedar lagi siapa aku di mata dia..hanya orang yang lalu lalang. some say that in order to be happy, just follow your heart. i wish that i could follow my heart but i can't coz it goes astray, it leads me to him... which isn't supposed to. what i have to do now is to control my heart. i won't let it drifts away. so, sempena birtday dia esok...aku akan cuba sebaik mungkin untuk padam perasaan ini before i fall too deeply. i can't promise myself coz i have no confidence but all i can do is to try my very best. yes, i will coz i can. aja aja fighting! go go go!

To you:

-->HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE! (wish that i could really say it to u)
-->SEMOGA PANJANG UMUR, SIHAT DAN HAPPY SELALU...
-->NO MATTER WHERE U ARE, WHAT U DO AND WHO U WITH, I'LL PRAY FOR U...
-->IT'S OK IF U DON'T NOTICE ME COZ I'M GOING TO FORGET THIS FEELING...
-->...COZ EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON AND I DO BELIEVE THAT...