Do i really have a crush on him?

1. Take notice of how you and your body react next time you see him. If you feel nervous or feel your heart skip a beat or start to sweat, you probably like him. -YES
2. Notice what you think about when you think of the guy. If thinking of him makes you nervous, excited or happy, you probably have a crush on him.- IT MAKES ME SAD INSTEAD
3. Notice whenever you try to go to the same exact place where he is. For example, when you are in school, you pass by his locker, or the places where you know he may be. -YES
4. Notice whenever you try to make a guy jealous. This may be a sign you like him. -NO
5. Notice if you talk to your friends about him a lot. -SOMETIMES
6. Notice whenever you try to get his attention. -YES
7. Notice if you try to make friends with his friends, or keep finding reasons to get close to him. -YES
8. Notice whenever you try to get information about him. -YES
9. Count how many times you think about him a day. If you think about him more than several times, you probably like him. -YES
10. Notice, how many times you've tried to google his name and how many times you've tried to search his personal page on MYSPACE or other social networking site. -YES..ON FB
11. Notice if you feel jealous or get mad at him for any little thing he does. -YES
12. Notice if your friend says you blush whenever he's around or his name is mentioned. -NO, THEY DON'T KNOW BOUT THIS.
13. Notice if you feel jealous when he's around other girls and/or flirts with them. -YES
14. Notice if your friends tell you that you were staring at him, and you don't even realize it. -NO, THEY DON'T NOTICE THAT.
15. If you talk about him in one of your conversations to anybody who will listen, he is stuck in your mind, and you probably like him. -YES
16. When you're getting dressed in the morning before school you always think "Will _____ like this?" Or something similar. -YES
17. You look forward to the one class you have with him or, you are so thankful you have more than one class with him. -YES
18. Notice if you think about him in the most random moments. -YES
19. If you're shy, notice when you avoid eye contact and blush when you are around him. -YES
20. If you walk by him and always glance over to see if he noticed you. -YES
21. You think about him the most and always have a smile on your face if you do. -YES, BUT IT MAKES ME SAD.
22. You remember incidents or moments you've had with him. -YES
23. Notice if you always look to see where he is. -YES
24. You might act differently with him than with other guys. -MAYBE
25. Notice if your friend says that you were doing something to get his attention, but you didn't even know that you did. -NO, COZ THEY DON'T KNOW
26. When you go to school you always see if he is there that day or you're always wanting to go just to see him. -YES
27. Notice if you always think of reasons, especially the small ridiculous reasons, to talk to him or to continue a conversation. -NO, NEVER TALK TO HIM
28. Notice if you are the first one to text him or to start a conversation with him. -NO, TOO SHY TO DO SO
29. You can't sleep well. -SOMETIMES
30. Notice if you get a sudden thrill whenever you hear his name. -YES
31. Finally, the biggest sign that there is: Were you thinking of him as you read this whole page? Did you search for this article so you could find out if you were crushing on him? If the answer to both of those is "Yes," then you like him a lot! -YES!!!!!!!!!!!

----->>WHAT DOES IT MEAN???????????? I'M GOING CRAZY THINKING ABOUT THIS!

Untukmu...

F,
Setiap kali terpandang wajah,
Terpegun aku dan terpesona,
Dengan senyuman dan pandangan mata mu,
Membuatkan hati ini tidak keruan..

Tanpa aku sedari,

Perasaan minat ini bertukar mnjadi cinta.


F,
Mungkinkah dikau,
Putera yang kucari dalam jagaku,
Slalu terbayang dan termimpi-mimpi,
Hingga terbawa di dalam lenaku...
Andainya dirimu sudi memandang dan menerimaku,
Kan kumahkotakanmu jauh di sudut hatiku.

Ku kan menyayangimu dengan setulus hati...

Dan akan ku setia pada yang satu..

Kerana diriku bukanlah,

Seorang yang mudah menyerahkan cinta.
Untuk memilikimu..
Setinggi gunung harapan,
Bukalah pintu hatimu untuk cinta ini,
Hanya ini harapanku,
Semoga impian ini kan menjadi nyata,
Bersamamu............

aku buntu...

kepada sahabatku:

ku berharap waktu dan ketika ini kamu bahagia dgn org tersayang...
dan tidak hairan la klu kamu dah melupai aku...
sesungguhnya die lbih penting...
kamu mmbuat satu keputusan yg bijak dgn menukar nombor fon...
kerana itu saja cara utk ku melupai kamu..
tiada cara lg utk ku terus mnggangu ketenangan hidupmu
yang x perlu kehadiranku lagi....
 walau bagaimanapun...
ku berharap sampai satu saat kamu akn mengingati aku,
kamu akan merindui aku,
kamu akn sedar yg kamu telah kehilangan seorg kwn....

selamat tinggal sahabatku...

kepada  si dia:

aku seperti org bodoh kerana menyukai kamu...
meminati kamu tnpa pngetahuan kamu dan org len...
kdg2 smpai hmpir gile memikirkan knp harusku jd begini...
kamu telah membina rumah di dlm otakku...
dan aku gagal menghalau kamu keluar...
kamu yg slalu ku fikirkan...
kamu yg slalu ku angankan...
tp xkn smpai dlm mimpi pon kamu nk ikut?
dan setiap kali ku terpandang kelibatmu..
ku x dpt mngalihkan pndanganku ke arah lain lg...
kamu telah menarik perhatianku...
tetapi realiti membuatku sedih...
membuatkan hatiku sakit...
kerana ku tahu itu semua hanyalah satu mimpi...
satu angan2 kosong...
sesungguhnya mimpi itu mmg indah...
tetapi realiti membuatkan aku mengalir air mata...
untuk menerima kenyataan..
yg kamu x pernh tau ttg kewujudan aku...
kamu  yg x pernah dan x akn memandang aku...
kerana aku sedar siapa aku nk dbandingkan dgn dirimu...
seorang insan biasa yg tiada apa2 keistimewaan...
sampai bila harusku begini?
aku sudah penat dan letih dgn prasaan ini...
tolonglah aku ya Allah...
berikan aku kekuatan dan ketabahan hati...

love comes to me like this

Sit down for a minute
I need you to listen
My heart is only tryin' to understand
I already stumbled and fell into your love
Like a castle falling in the sand


You were never there to hold me
When I needed your hands
You were never there to listen
When I needed a friend
Gave me lovin' for a day
And never gave it again
Now I'm standin' outside your door


Knock knock knock
Nobody's there but me
Am I the only one hangin' on
Knock knock knock
Nobody's home but me
I'm the only one hangin' on

One-sided love


Love's so deceivin'
You had me believin'
That you would never let me down
You dangled your candy in front of a baby
And you took your sweets across the town

tired of being myelf

Ain't it funny how some feelings u just can't deny and u can't move on even though u try...i wish i never even met u now. so then i wouldn't stay awake at nite-staring at my blank ceiling thinking about u and how i wish that u could see me and at the same time how i know i'm not good enough for you... how i may never ever be your friend but u're still out there somewhere and still driving me crazy...

I'm not in love...It's just a silly phase I'm going through...And just because I think about u all the time...Don't get me wrong..Don't think you've got it made...i'm in love...I'm not in love...

lalalala...

alhamdulillah...kusut kepala ku smkin berkurg...sgalanye tlh berlalu...x sbr rasenye nk blik kg...blik kg dpt mengurangkan kekusutan di kepala ini kerana berada dgn org2 tersayang...

feeling down

i'm feeling down today...kepala aku serabut skrg...things that make me feel worst:

• presentation n assignment that due on thursday
• result midterm teruk
• him

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku....berikan lah aku kekuatan dan ketabahan hati utk ku meneruskan liku2 idup ini...

ssungguhnye hnye Engkau yg tau betapa aku insan yg lemah...hnye Engkau yg mengetahui dan memahami perasaanku ketika ini...Sedihnye prasaanku x dpt ku gambarkan...aku hanye mmpu mgalirkan air mata dan hanye Engkau yg mnjadi sksi...jika bantal, slimut, katil, meja dan brg2 dlm bilikku dpt mndgr dan melihat serta mmpunyai hati prasaan, aku pasti mereka juga akn sedih melihat kesedihanku ini...hnye mereka mnjadi teman ketika ku bersedih....mgkin mereka jgk akn menangis apabila mlihat tuannye mngis...tp syg mereka x dpt buat ape2...

berkenaan prasaanku trhdp die....Ya Allah...Kau padamkan lah perasaan ku ini sebelum ia mnjadi smkin parah...aku tau hnye aku yg mmpunyai prasaan ini...sdgkan die x prnh pndang aku...x prnh tau pon kewujudan aku ini...aku tau aku x lyak utk mmpunyai prasaan ini terhdp die...Ya Allah, aku tau prasaan ini adalah 1 anugerah but it hurts too much...aku x sggup mghdapi nye utk kali kedua...ckup la dgn ape yg aku harungi sebelum ini...one-sided love is much painful than having a heart broken..ptus cinta at least kte tau kte prnh d sygi...ade org mnyayagi kte...tp one-sided love?hnye org yg prnh mengalami nye tau dan pham betapa skitnye..

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, sblm ini aku prnh brharap dpt berkawan dgn die..skrg ape yg aku hrapkan adalah utk Kau lenyapkan prasaaan ini trhdp die...kerana berdasarkan ape yg aku lihat, aku x mgkin mnjadi kwn die... aku xnk berharap lg...harapan itu mmbuatkan aku hidup dlm alam fantasi....di mane sume org tau fantasi xkn jd realiti...

Ya Allah Ya Allah Ya Allah....Kau tolonglah aku Ya Allah..hnye Kau yg memahami dan megetahui prasaaanku ni....berikan lah aku semangat dan kekuatan Ya Allah...that's what i really need rite now coz i lost it long time ago...

Moga Kau kabulkanlah doaku ini...amin.............

i'm going insane...

aku mmg x phm dengan prasaan aku skrg...aku dah penat dgn prasaan ni...aku pernah berperasaan begini sblm ni but with different person...for about 4 years i kept this feeling...he's one of my friends...at first aku x menyedari prasaan ini sehingga la he told me that he met someone special...i don't know y but my heart fell apart the moment he told me that...i even cried...it something that i couldn't control...however, kami truskan persahabatan kami shigga kini..sepnjang itu jgk aku slalu mtk prtolongan drpd Allah...spaya tlong aku padamkan prasaan aku ini jika die bkn tkdir ku...aku jga mnta Dia tlong cri pgganti utk aku lupakan die...

kini...ingatan aku trhdp die sdh berkurg...tp kdg2 ade jgk terfikir psl die...ape yg die buat skrg?tp skrg fikiran aku tdk tertumpu kpd die lg...len plak jd nye...aku asyik terfikirkan org yg aku tulis dlm post aku sblm ni...
slalu aku berharap dpt bertembung dgn die ke mane saje aku pergi...klmarin aku ade bertembung dgn die dkt bazar....xtau la die nmpak aku ke x coz aku sembunyi blkg kwn aku...mmg aku dh x btui...aku nk die nmpk aku tp nape aku sembunyi blkg kwn aku?aku x paham..............adakah ini cinta? aku xtau...

sampai ble hrus aku berperasaan begini...adakah sejarah berulang lagi?tp dengan berlainan org...aku hrp prasaan ini hnye sementara...cpt2 la berlalu...

love? like? admire?

perasaan ini dtg lg...xtau knp kebelakangan ini aku selalu terfikirkan die...he's always been on my mind...smpai dlm mimpi pon aku nmpk die...stiap ari aku berhrp dpt bertembung dgn die...wlaupon aku dan die x prnh bersapa...hnye bertembung mate saje dpt mmbuatkan ati aku berdbr2...prnh dua kali mate kami bertemu...aku tgk die,die tgk aku...tp ble mate die pndang mate aku je trus cpt2 aku alihkan pndangan ku ke arh len...pretending that nothing's happen but inside, hnye allah je tau...smpai skrg aku msih trbyg pndangan matenye...i still vividly can remember it...n it's hard 4 me to frget...

aku minat die sjk kali prtame aku tgk die...die 1 group dgn aku ms ice breaking course kami...wlaupun 1 group, kami x prnh bersapa...aku jd pendiam dgn org yg aku x knl...maybe die pon pemalu...x byk ckp pon spnjg program tu...pd mlm pnutup pgram tu ade dinner...rmai yg amik pluang utk brgambar....ade jgk la sorg dua senior pompuan brgmbr dgn die...aku pon xtau la ape yg aku rs time tu...cemburu ke?ishh, x phm la aku...prnh jgk kami sekelas,amik sbjek yg same pd mase yg same...tiap kali dlm kls, mate aku slalu mncri kelibat die...ble x nmpk die aku rs something's missing je dlm kls tu...pd ms tu aku tau die dh ade mkwe...agaknye la...aku msih ingt lagi pd ari presentation aku, aku ckp smthing yg melucukan...classmates aku gelak je...trmsuk la die...ntah knp aku rs happy je time tu...dpt mmbuatkn org ktawa trutamenye die...

ms brlalu...n i think that i just admire him...not more than that...sem ni kami sekelas lg...spt dlu, stiap kali p kls tu aku brhrp dpt jmpe dgn die...just to see him there...i just can't take my eyes off him! ari demi ari aku selalu berangan dan berdoa yg kami akn bertembung di luar kmpus.or mane2 je aku prgi...n pd mse itu die akn tegur aku...hahaha...ini la angan ku....angan yg xkn jd kenyataan...aku x pasti la die notice aku ke x...ari sbtu bru ni aku kuar p msjid india...mlm sblm tu terdetik d ati aku brhrap spaya aku brtembung dgn die...ati ku berkate "bestnye klu aku bertembung ngan die n kmudian die sapa aku...mntk no fon aku...bla bla bla...." hahaha...tggi sugguh aku terbang...ntah knp tringin sgt  mengenali die...brkwn dgn die...jelez jgk tgk owg len dpt brkwn dgn die...i just wanna b one of his frens..not more than that...

aku blik dr msjid india dgn lrt...aku brdiri d ruang view pmndangan kt dpt lrt tu...knon2 la aku yg bwk lrt tu...haha,...ade je tmpt kosong tp sngaje aku x duduk..sesampai je kt stesen lrt wngsa maju, ade 3 boys bru msuk...aku trpndang kwnnye...cpt2 aku alihkan pndangan ke hdpan...dan ati ku mula brdbr2...wlaupun aku x nmpk die tp aku dpt agak die msti ade dlm 3 org tu cos 3 owg tu adlah geng...tekaan aku mmg btul..it's him!

ble trun je dr lrt,diowg jln dlu...aku d blkg...die ade jgk pndg ke blkg tp aku rs die x cam aku coz aku pkai topeng h1n1...hheheh...Fuh,selamat! but deep down inside my heart, i really hope that he notices me...

it's amazing...it's unbelievable that half of my dreams came true...syukur alhamdulillah allah telah mendengar dan memakbulkan hrpan dan doa ku ini....satu2 nye hrpan ku skrg ialah utk mjdi kwn die...aku akn slalu berdoa yg suatu ari nnti kami akn jd kwn...isyaallah...amin...

LOVE, LIKE, ADMIRE

which category do i belong to?