love comes to me like this

Sit down for a minute
I need you to listen
My heart is only tryin' to understand
I already stumbled and fell into your love
Like a castle falling in the sand


You were never there to hold me
When I needed your hands
You were never there to listen
When I needed a friend
Gave me lovin' for a day
And never gave it again
Now I'm standin' outside your door


Knock knock knock
Nobody's there but me
Am I the only one hangin' on
Knock knock knock
Nobody's home but me
I'm the only one hangin' on

One-sided love


Love's so deceivin'
You had me believin'
That you would never let me down
You dangled your candy in front of a baby
And you took your sweets across the town

tired of being myelf

Ain't it funny how some feelings u just can't deny and u can't move on even though u try...i wish i never even met u now. so then i wouldn't stay awake at nite-staring at my blank ceiling thinking about u and how i wish that u could see me and at the same time how i know i'm not good enough for you... how i may never ever be your friend but u're still out there somewhere and still driving me crazy...

I'm not in love...It's just a silly phase I'm going through...And just because I think about u all the time...Don't get me wrong..Don't think you've got it made...i'm in love...I'm not in love...

lalalala...

alhamdulillah...kusut kepala ku smkin berkurg...sgalanye tlh berlalu...x sbr rasenye nk blik kg...blik kg dpt mengurangkan kekusutan di kepala ini kerana berada dgn org2 tersayang...

feeling down

i'm feeling down today...kepala aku serabut skrg...things that make me feel worst:

• presentation n assignment that due on thursday
• result midterm teruk
• him

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku....berikan lah aku kekuatan dan ketabahan hati utk ku meneruskan liku2 idup ini...

ssungguhnye hnye Engkau yg tau betapa aku insan yg lemah...hnye Engkau yg mengetahui dan memahami perasaanku ketika ini...Sedihnye prasaanku x dpt ku gambarkan...aku hanye mmpu mgalirkan air mata dan hanye Engkau yg mnjadi sksi...jika bantal, slimut, katil, meja dan brg2 dlm bilikku dpt mndgr dan melihat serta mmpunyai hati prasaan, aku pasti mereka juga akn sedih melihat kesedihanku ini...hnye mereka mnjadi teman ketika ku bersedih....mgkin mereka jgk akn menangis apabila mlihat tuannye mngis...tp syg mereka x dpt buat ape2...

berkenaan prasaanku trhdp die....Ya Allah...Kau padamkan lah perasaan ku ini sebelum ia mnjadi smkin parah...aku tau hnye aku yg mmpunyai prasaan ini...sdgkan die x prnh pndang aku...x prnh tau pon kewujudan aku ini...aku tau aku x lyak utk mmpunyai prasaan ini terhdp die...Ya Allah, aku tau prasaan ini adalah 1 anugerah but it hurts too much...aku x sggup mghdapi nye utk kali kedua...ckup la dgn ape yg aku harungi sebelum ini...one-sided love is much painful than having a heart broken..ptus cinta at least kte tau kte prnh d sygi...ade org mnyayagi kte...tp one-sided love?hnye org yg prnh mengalami nye tau dan pham betapa skitnye..

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, sblm ini aku prnh brharap dpt berkawan dgn die..skrg ape yg aku hrapkan adalah utk Kau lenyapkan prasaaan ini trhdp die...kerana berdasarkan ape yg aku lihat, aku x mgkin mnjadi kwn die... aku xnk berharap lg...harapan itu mmbuatkan aku hidup dlm alam fantasi....di mane sume org tau fantasi xkn jd realiti...

Ya Allah Ya Allah Ya Allah....Kau tolonglah aku Ya Allah..hnye Kau yg memahami dan megetahui prasaaanku ni....berikan lah aku semangat dan kekuatan Ya Allah...that's what i really need rite now coz i lost it long time ago...

Moga Kau kabulkanlah doaku ini...amin.............

i'm going insane...

aku mmg x phm dengan prasaan aku skrg...aku dah penat dgn prasaan ni...aku pernah berperasaan begini sblm ni but with different person...for about 4 years i kept this feeling...he's one of my friends...at first aku x menyedari prasaan ini sehingga la he told me that he met someone special...i don't know y but my heart fell apart the moment he told me that...i even cried...it something that i couldn't control...however, kami truskan persahabatan kami shigga kini..sepnjang itu jgk aku slalu mtk prtolongan drpd Allah...spaya tlong aku padamkan prasaan aku ini jika die bkn tkdir ku...aku jga mnta Dia tlong cri pgganti utk aku lupakan die...

kini...ingatan aku trhdp die sdh berkurg...tp kdg2 ade jgk terfikir psl die...ape yg die buat skrg?tp skrg fikiran aku tdk tertumpu kpd die lg...len plak jd nye...aku asyik terfikirkan org yg aku tulis dlm post aku sblm ni...
slalu aku berharap dpt bertembung dgn die ke mane saje aku pergi...klmarin aku ade bertembung dgn die dkt bazar....xtau la die nmpak aku ke x coz aku sembunyi blkg kwn aku...mmg aku dh x btui...aku nk die nmpk aku tp nape aku sembunyi blkg kwn aku?aku x paham..............adakah ini cinta? aku xtau...

sampai ble hrus aku berperasaan begini...adakah sejarah berulang lagi?tp dengan berlainan org...aku hrp prasaan ini hnye sementara...cpt2 la berlalu...